fairytale

2010-01-30T19:17:00.002+08:00

you're leaving & you think that we cared isit?
we are much more happier without you!!
cause you're such a bitch!! who is a hypocrite & you think that you're all that
but in fact, you're just a LOSER!! and you have no idea where you stand!!

so just leave us alone!! you can lie to us all you want
& it will never bring any good to you or us..

to tell you the truth, we are much more happier that you're leaving..
so that we don't have to listen to all your lies..
& yeah you have already stole someone's bf..
& for that you still don't realise it, and you think that you're not in the fucking wrong!
wtf!! you & you're blady two face!!

& don't think that you have someone to back you up.
you're everything tau..tak eh aku cakap ngan kau!
doesn't mean that im quite, or 'new' here *which im not!!!*
you might think that i don't fucking know whats going on!!
if you think that way, than you're soooo fucking wrong gerl!!

anyways....just a reminder to you bitch!!
don't play games with a person who can play it even much more better than you..

=)

2010-01-26T11:42:00.002+08:00

its not that i don't trust you anymore..
basically i just couldn't be bother..
sorry..

didn't i told you that i have a date after work..
so why insist on meeting me on the day that i've already had a plan..
there's so much of other days that you could meet me what..

soo yeah..meet you some other day..

2010-01-24T18:13:00.000+08:00

there's no point to lie.. cause in the end, u will get the same result..ssoo.. why wasting your blady time to lie..dont be stupid.. :)

I JUST COULDN'T BE BOTHERED ANYMORE!!

2010-01-24T17:37:00.002+08:00

there's always a reason why im so worked out..

firstly, PLEASE do not.. i repeat DO NOT use being attached as your reason!!
i know, that your boyfriend is worried for you when your outside til late at night..
just go out for awhile seh, i dont ask much just few hours.
even i, myself are busy with work now..

your mum nagged at you cause you always go home late & always go out?
than in the first place who ask you to go out always & go home late?
kie lah, this one im not trying to pick a fight with you.. but isn't it kinda lame..
i mean you can tell your mum that your going to meet your secondary school friends &
its not like everyday you hang out with them.. not like your other friends..

& on the night before you said, you will be coming along.
the next day, you told ammar, you have some family things, & you told fizah that you
have already made plans..& you told me that you have to packed your stuffs cause your moving out soon.. & yeah i do know that your moving out soon.. but which reason are this?
& oh, don't tell me that you packed your stuffs from morning til night.. & dont tell me, that you cant continue packing the next day? and i dont asked you to meet us at 12pm or what.. or join ammar to karaoke.. i only ask to meet at 830pm, after i have finish work.. & just stay til around 1045pm or 11pm..or just a while also, i dont mind.. atleast i get to see your face..

hmm..and you said i dont understand??
anyways just wanna wish you happy life ahead bestie.
all the best in whatever you're doing now...

wht i want for valentine's day

2010-01-23T15:26:00.003+08:00

all i want for valentine's day gift is one of these!!

hee..=)

2010-01-12T15:15:00.002+08:00

hey!!

its awhile since i've updated my blog...
dah berabuk blog aku nie..hee...
sorry friends!!

i've been busy lately..busy with what, i also dont know..
hahaha..or should i say there's nothing interesting to update about
& im really really lazy to use the computer for long hours..

normally i would just check my fb & then signout..
hahaha..boring..hmm..im stil struggling in finding jobs..
next month graduation!! woohoo!! on the 3rd of feb..

i really need to work..im totally broke seh!! NOOOO!!!
hahahaha..

toodles!!

2009-12-01T07:28:00.003+08:00

everything is clear to me now.

right from the start,

it was my lost & never his lost.

it was mine!

2009-11-27T23:02:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry.you cant just simply dislike a person by the way he treats me..i know you don't want me to be hurt in any ways.& i believe that people can change for the better.you just have to take an effort an give a second chance..

in life there's always choices. & i still believe that you can change.i know! n i will wait..cause i know what you have been through during the hard times & the problems that i've created, you are still there believing in me..& now, it just happens to be me..its like now we have our personalty change or rather we swap places..idk..

2009-11-26T04:52:00.003+08:00

dear someone..

did u ever realize what had to done to me? like what i did to find out? it was super mean for what you have done.. you're much more evil than me. well i do admit that i'm not so nice person after all. but how could you ever like ruin a mother-daughter relationship, just like that? how could you? & what are you? a human??!!

& i know at that point of time you are really really mad at me. & come on, you don't have to tell her every single detail bout me. & i know you treat her like your very own mother, & still that doesn't give you any right to break my mum's heart. i don't mind if you want to have revenge on me, & hurt me as much as possible. BUT NEVER EVER you dare to hurt my mum.

i never ever had the intention to hurt u by involving your parents in any kind of problem

we are facing. & in all my 18 years of living, no one ever did that to me, & WOW! your the first one to do this to me.. like how amazing! i was so shock of what you had done. i didn't know that your so mean, & worst than a devil.

when i heard what my mum told me, i feel like my heart was riped out again into a thousand pieces again, & my mind went to a total blank..i don't even know now. whether to hate you or still love you..if i would hate you, well what you did is like totally unforgivable & unforgettable.

but maybe at the forgiving part, it takes a long period of time.. to say that i still love you, yeah i still do, but after this cruel, inhuman things you did to me? i don't know..

just now at 335am you just called me, regrading your sis is not home yet?& you asked me for her number?isn't it a bit of ridiculous you as her big brother you don't have your sister's number? & after that you call me again at 435am, this time your voice are different, they were in pain. & you told me, that you met an accident again. & this time is bad, with lots of scratch at your arms & legs. i could hear you shout in pain as your elder brother cleanses the wound..

did you realize, that this is the second time u met with an accident, & this one is much more bad than the previous one. & you call to inform me about this, and i don't know why i cant feel any feeling of worry? i don't know.but i did offer to go down to your place to visit you,later in the day.

why am i still very kind towards you after those things you said.& did you realize or not? when your hurt like this who do you find? you came looking for me, & when you're healthy, where are you? i don't receive any text messages or calls from you. you would just keep quiet, until you needed something than you will be looking for me. other than that, you just keep quiet & lead your life like nothing had happen, and make me the one who is worried sick about you every time. and if i would text you, some of the thing that i say, and you wouldn't reply & just keep quiet.

every single day i just hoping & wishing you to call or text me.but that just didn't happen. and you apologize to me again and you said this accident is the punishment of what you have done wrong doing & hurt me.if you want to say it's the punishment, than i would say, this is the punishment to hurt a mother's feeling! i mean everyone knows it very very very well. you can never hurt your own mother or anyone else's mother..never..& now you told me, mother didn't even talk to you anymore.& that's why i needed / wanted you to apologize to mother! and how could you ever hurt her, when you said that you treated her like your own mother.sampai hati buat mak macam nie?

i'm just so disappointed in you..no matter how much you apologize to me, maybe i could forgive you, but you still have to be forgiven by my mother..

2009-10-15T16:11:00.003+08:00

oh babyboy, you see what you've done to me..

im trying so hard,

that it feels like im dying!!

while it seems to me that im trying.

but im so sick of trying cause you keep on lying,

i will stop trying if that's what you have been wanting!!

2009-10-11T12:20:00.001+08:00

hOlla!!
finally 3 weeks of holidays have ended!!
this holidays, have been one of a kind to me..
cause normally during holidays i would work
everysingle day & take a day or 2 to east my mind from work..

but as for this holiday, its diffrent cause im no longer working,
& most of the time i spend my day outside only when its dear off day,
& sometimes im still out with frens & by having to sit at home, it would just kill me!!

there's been alots of downs which i hate it so much..
& which i have to move on & forget about it..well, its hard to fogive & its even harder to forget..so...yeahhh..i guess..hahaha..

holidays was kinda fun also..keep on watching movies..what movie did i watched?
g-force 3d, phobia 2, cloudy with a chance of meatballs & darah..
its sort of every week i catch a movie..hahaha..
all this movie that i've watched, its a must watch movie!!
seriously!!

hmm..now g2g..
i'll update again soon!!
toodles!!

2009-09-14T23:37:00.003+08:00

hey!!!

had an awesome day today!!
met khairul!! aka badot!!
hahahaha..

met khairul at vivo!!
last mint plan..
today act i have no plan..
he text me while i was sleeping.hehe
so met him & accompanied him
to find a gift for his gf!!

& so we went to build a bear workshop..
cool sngt seh.. =)
he picked the bear i pick the clothes,shoes!!
hehehe..
so sweet of him to build a bear for his gf!
hehe

cute kan??!

2009-09-14T00:22:00.002+08:00

hey!!

it's been awhile since i update my blog..
i've been very very very busy,
busy of enjoying my days with my beloved baby & friends!!
hehehe..

kie isty, aku update blog aku nie!!
hahahaha..
just now had an superb day with babydear!
met him at 9 in the morning at my block, then went off to sheng siong,
to buy ingredients to bake cookies for his fam..

we start to bake the cookies at 12 & it ends at 4pm.
then i went off to accompany his sis to have a hair cut.
at 5pm met babydear's friends at his void deck,
& we went off to singapore flyer to popeyes
break-fast there!

we then proceed to city link,
as mummy gave me some cash to buy shoes for hari raya!
& so they follow me to charles & keith, i bought a black heels there..hahaha..
& we went to marina square, we went to the arcade! cool!! hahahaha..
had lots of fun there!!
chitchat a while, then proceed home!!
im so tired, i was out since morning,& 2mrw schling in the morning!
haiiyo!!

C.A.D. phase test, cant be late again!!
haiish..
g2g..
nites.. swit drms!

ABOUT STUPID GIRL!

2009-08-28T17:31:00.004+08:00

what a day!
in this fasting month, there's stil people who wants to find fault?
OMG!! dont they have something better to do in this month,
like do something that bring good deeds to theirselves..
haiiya..TUUUUUUPIIDD PEOPLE lah!!
hahahahaha..

should i say that she's stupid? well, she is!! cause there's this girl,
who find fault with me about this pathetic thing that happen like for two weeks back!
& although it's hard for me to let go of that incident,but i did let it go & just move on..
so can say that now that story has closed! & that tupid gerl or shud i say that bitch!
ya, that bitch!! she just like cant get over it & started to send me mesgges at tagged!
hahahaha..tupid!!

& the best part was she called me "anak abu!" should i say that if i were a "anak abu"
then your just a 'BUDAK HINGUS!' cause why? cause im older than her!tupid girl..
hahahas!! so what i did was, i called her up & have a lilttle "NICE" chat with her..
oh & ya, if you wanna make up stories to your friends about what we talked about go ahead!
cause the only person who knows the true story, it's me!

please note yourself ya,next time dont find fault with a person,when they had know every single details or story about wht had happen!!

SO DONT BE TUUPIID!!

2009-08-23T16:57:00.002+08:00

why,when you thought that it is over,
& you just try to adapt everything like before,
then it just repeated again!

i dont understand! like wht are you trying to prove me?
what am i suppose to say? actually, what do you want from me?
what do you want me to do?

if this going to repeat again & again..
then dont bother to try make me feel better,
or dont botter finding me & telling me all those crapp.
cause i know how to make myself feel better, without any of your help.
thank you, but no thanks..

& ya, as long as your this way,
dont bother talking to me or promise me anything!
if you dont bother to change to the way you were,
when the first time i knew you..
then might as well you can just go..

i love u!

2009-08-22T23:12:00.005+08:00

Heres my promise made tonight

You can count on me for life

Thats when i love you

When nothing you do can change my mind

The more I learn, The more I love

The more my heart cant get enough

Thats when I love you, no matter what!

sorry! i just have to say!

2009-08-17T23:05:00.002+08:00

sorry! it just keep on popping up to my mind!

so yeah!

i fucking hate you!!

dear bestie

2009-08-17T21:18:00.004+08:00

im sorry for what i've said to you earlier,
honestly, i didnt mean it!
i dont even know why i had say that in first place.
i, myself was shock to say that.

we had know each for 6 yrs now,
& you, yourself, should know that
i'm always there to support you from behind,
in whatever your doing!
& we had been going thru thick & thin together.

i felt really really really really bad,
im sorry!please forgive me.
i really really felt bad about it,
til i, myself break into tears.

im really really really sorry!
i love you!
i miss you!

the fact!

2009-08-16T13:41:00.009+08:00

if someone cant handle you at your worst,

they dont deserve at your best.

dont let someone becme a priority in your life,

when your just an option in theirs.

some say holding on is what makes you STRONG.

but sometimes it takes much more strength to just

LET GO and MOVE ON!

sometimes you cant help and wonder,

if it's better to hang on or to just let go!

at batam!

2009-08-08T20:23:00.002+08:00

hey!!

now im at batam!

hahahahah!!

im at my cousin's place!

yups, i went to batam.

&& i went to had a picture taken at the Mega mall!

& there's this packet, as in 10 potret pictures for like

$12 singapore dollars. hahahahah..cheap right!!

& after that, i went to get a hair do!!

jyeah!! my mum treat me!! hahahaha.

& hopefully tomorrow i could go home!!

cause i want to meet my dear! & also i want to watch the fireworks!

argh!! i dont want to go home on monday! hahahahahaha

anyways, im having fun here!

toodles!!

2009-08-05T14:21:00.002+08:00

mood : energetic !!
song : unbreakable !

hey!
now in class, having project!
the lesson called project!
hehehe!

yesterday, i didnt attand school!
class start at 1 & i have to wake early
just to meet boifee!
went sembawag early in the morning!
wake up at 7am, thought of giving dear a suprise.
but then he had already wake up.
so met him at yishun first!

we just sit & talked craps! hahaha.
watched terminator : the salvation
i watched half way & dozed off to sleep.
tired lahh!wake up so early tau! hahahaha.. =p

anyways! this few weeks i've been feeling really really happy,
like it has been so long since i felt this way!
hee~

2009-08-02T18:18:00.001+08:00

oh ya!

on friday, i met dilly at her house
then she accompanied me to apply for a new job
hee~
i have already apply for a new job!
yes,that's right!
im no longer gonna work in sim lim sq!
i work til end of august!

2009-08-02T17:46:00.004+08:00

hey!!

yesterday was kinda fun!
after work, met my dearie nizam!
he fetch me from work! =)

we took pictures! cool!
using his omnia phone!
there's this effect called smile,
u dont have to press capture to snap ur picture,
but u just have to smile, & it will scan for ur smile,
& it will be captured by itself!

then after that,we waited for his cousin, fairul
to come down. then we went off to my place,
had bbq at blk 601, celebrate mummy's birthday!
& coincidently,nizam's dad is also celebrating his birthday
but at different location. hahaha.
& nizam & fairul can only stay for a while.

had lots of fun!

the best thing was that,
mummy's birthday & nizam's dad birthday is on the same day,
which is on the 30th of july!
hahaha.
the the funny part was,
yesterday when nizam salam my dad,
my dad told him, "bapak kau same birthday ngan mak mertue kau eh!"
hahahahaha.& ya, my dad always talked to nizam, or any of my guy friends
or even my brothers friends, aku kau.
hahaha.

& when he said like that to nizam, i was like laughing all the way!
& mummy even told him,
to ask his dad to come down & celebrate their birthday together. hahaha..

we are not offically back together yet,

now,we are just in serious dating each other,

to close up the 6 mths gap & update ourselves with each other life now!

& i think my parent's thought that we were back together!hahaha

and honestly, my parents are glad to see me with nizam again!

& not only my parents but all my friends too!

secondary school friends, azmi, khairul, dilly & especially my god-brother shawal!

hahahaha!

after 2 yrs of lost with khairul

& finally last month,we contact each other again!

hehehe. & he is so sweet!

everynight,he would like remind me to call or mesg nizam.hahaha

& he dont us to lost contact with each other ever again,

even if im attached.so sweet of him.

me, myself dont want to lose a friend like him!

cool!! fun lah sngt!
=)

toodles~

2009-07-27T19:50:00.002+08:00

heyO!

arrgghh!!
im sick today,
i didnt go to school today.
cause my sickness is getting worst?!
hahahaha.. i think~
hehehe

went to the doctor,
i get like 3 pills, 1 syrup & 1 eye drop.
like alot of medicine i have to take, siol!
hahahahha..
& i get like 3 days mc!
cool!
i will be back to sch on thursday! =)

bored per, duduk umah! hahaha~

2009-07-25T19:35:00.002+08:00

OMG!!

im sick!
i had sore throat!
& dry cough!!
argh!!

in just 1 pathetic day,
my cough is getting worst!
& my throat hurts like hell!

i feel like im gonna catch a high fever.
cause everytime went i have a sore throat,
it will ends with high fever!
argh!! im gonna be sick!

ermm..but im craving to eat ICE CREAM!
or WAFFLE ICE CREAM!
can i have it now!
please!
hehehe

2009-07-22T23:05:00.003+08:00

hey!!

just now met dilly at hgng!
fetch her from hgng mrt!
then we went to my house!

oh! ya, dilly disturbed me the whole evening.
i wanted to take a nap for a while,
she keep on disturb me til im off from my bed!
hee~
then we had our late lunch.

meet isty at ard 745 at my block.
then we accompany isty to sengkang,
to future park, for her rekki!

we accompany her all the way til
we're at the playground area.
me & dilly went to play the playground.
then later on isty join us.
hahahaha

the playground is like fun giler!!
betol2, nmpk cam future nyer playground! hahahah
padehal dah dri sec 1 aku gi sane!
hahahahaha

it was fun lah! =)
& ya, monday, after school,
me & isty will be meeting dilly.
then we will be going to west coast park!
yjeah!!.

2009-07-22T14:17:00.002+08:00

to ex of mine!

i have already known you for three long years!
thanks for being there for me!

i know your just being protective over me!
thank you!

the funny thing was that, i couldnt fake to you about anything!
pantat! hee~ u like to text me & called me up,
ask how was my day & stuffs!
i just dont want u to be worried about me
your in camp, & i just want you to be happy!

even through messaging, you can tell that there's something
that is not right with me! haha!
but i text you like as per normal.& i dont know how u can know.
hahahahahah!

anyways! thanks for being there for me!
=)

we are like getting closer to each other, that's what i notice!
hehehe. we are like turnnning to bestfriends! hee~
it's like you know me like inside out!
although there's a big gap when we lost contact!
hehehehe! ur belloness is stil there. the same.
ur stil the azmi i knew when i was in sec 3! hahaha

appreciate it alot!=)

thanks! =)

2009-07-22T13:42:00.008+08:00

im so!! deleting you off from my life!
you are so last season!

all this while, im just keeping quiet
& there you go accussing me
& assuming things about me!
like as if you dont know me!
OH WAIT! do you even know who the fcuking me?
i dont think so!

& now im no longer gonna be stupid &
not gonna jage ati org
when they dont know how to care of mine!

hahahah! found out, you are also the same!
contactig other girls, but when you do that,
do i even nagg at you? NO, i dont!
cause i know there's no fcuking point of getting mad at you!
cause we are nothing! hah!

anyways! thanks for making me do the first move that,
i never done it to any of my exs. & it's so gonna be the first & the last
to know a person exactly like you!

deleting you off from my life!
deletimg everysingle thing about you!
throwing everysingle moments & memories of you!
have a PLEASENT life ahead ya!

aku sumpah ko tak akan dapat kebahagiaan
dalam idop ko! aku sumpah, e only way for you to find
ur happiness & the only person who can change you back,
is ur ex gf! *the one before me*
& before that you have to seek forgiveness from me!
& you have to kneel down infront of me & beg forgiveness from me!

you have make me a living hell!
now is ur turn bitch!

aishah lulabelle

2009-07-20T17:30:00.003+08:00

Ignorance
by Paramore

If I'm a bad person,
You don't like me.
I guess I'll make my own way,
It's a circle,
I mean cycle.
I can't excite you anymore.
Where's your gavel, your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me,
Well sentence me to another life.

Chorus:
Don't wanna hear your sad songs.
I don't wanna feel your pain,

When you swear it's all my fault.
Cause you know we're not the same.
We're not the same
Oh we're not the same,

The friends who stuck together.
We wrote our names in blood,

But I guess you can't accept that the change is good,
It's good
It's good
It's good

You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you sir.
I guess I'll go.I best be on my way out.

You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you sir.
I guess I'll go.
I best be on my way out.

Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend.

This is the best thing that could've happened.
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it.
It's not a war.
No, it's not a rapture.
I'm just a person, but you can't take it,
The same tricks that once fooled me.
They won't get you anywhere.
I'm not the same kid from your memory.
Now I can fend for myself.

this is the damn best song ever!
i love this song!
it is so true lah!

2009-07-19T23:07:00.003+08:00

hey!

had a great time just now!
went double date!
hahaha cam *paham jer double date!*

not really double date!.
i went out with my brother, dilly & shawal!
considering i date my brother. hahahaha

anyways, met dilly & shawal at sim lim sq foodcourt!
then proceed to al-tarzzak!
for sheesha again! hee~ wee~
had freat time!

---------------------------------------------

& ya, who the fcuking hell are you to judge me!
you dont even know me lah, PLEASE!
you think you are everythink! but you're NOT!
your just a person who dont even know what's right for you!

what you know is to complain!
& never appreciate what you have!
& when you lost it, you would blame them.
but YOU , YOURSELF DONT even know how to take good care of it!

you want me to talk to you?! your just wasting my time!
think whatever you want about me!
cause your just a person who like to find the difficulty in life!
come on grow up!

2009-07-18T00:48:00.004+08:00

hey!

i had a great day just now,

had a girl's day out!

went to KGC then headed town to al-tazzak

to smoke sheesha! jyeah!

it's been 1 mth since the last time i went there.

hee~

i went out with isty & dilly. =)

this two great & bello gfs!

i love you, both!

i had alot of funs!

talk crap alot! & laugh alot. =)

thanks for brighten up my day!

thanks!

& ya, im going to change for the better!

after what had been told to me,

after so long i've been stupid!

i want to have a better life & a better future ahead!

alot of pple dislike me, being this way!

& i need to be the old me.

the friendly me & the girl

can think! & the girl who used to talked sense to pple!

the girl who used to be strong!

im going to change!

sorry friends & love ones

for my idiotic behaviour for the pass 6 months!

im sorry! but now im going to change to the old me!

i just need reassurence!

& thanks for advice & support.

thank you!

XoXo

aishah lulabelle

2009-07-16T13:21:00.002+08:00

21 guns

by: Green day!

Do you know what's worth fighting for

When it's not worth dying for?

Does it take your breath away

And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride

And you look for a place to hide?

Did someone break your heart inside?

You're in ruins

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms

Give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms into the sky,

You and I

When you're at the end of the road

And you lost all sense of control

And your thoughts have taken their toll

When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass

And the hangover doesn't pass

Nothing's ever built to last

You're in ruins

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms

Give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms into the sky,

You and I

Did you try to live on your own

When you burned down the house and home?

Did you stand too close to the fire

Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die

And you can't get another try

Something inside this heart has died

You're in ruins

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms

Give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms

Give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms into the sky,

You and I

meaningfull lyrics.=)

2009-07-15T23:11:00.006+08:00

hey!!

i miss spending time alone.
it feels great to spend some time alone
at night.

doodle my big book!
listen to songs from my hp.
hehehe..

i think im going to start to spent
some time alone.
have some quality time with myself. =)

although it might be boring.
but it's nice to spent some quality time by myself.
like just lay down at my bed with earpiece
plug to my ears. & do some doodling!
& have a peace of mind!

hehehe..!

going to do this very often.
so be understanding ya.
hehehe..=)

toodles!
nites. hugs & kisses.
~aishah lulabelle~

sorry for everythink!

2009-07-14T10:14:00.003+08:00

dear someone!

i know what you heard,
you heard something about me,
it's something about i didnt accept you as something.
& if really, i cant accept you,
& why do you think that
i would spent most of my time with you?

why you didnt tell me,
that your having problems?
i know, it's been few days,
i have been keeping quiet, & that doesnt mean that
im avoiding you, NO your wrong.
im just having difficult times at home.

& you always told me to share my problems with you,
& i did. and why your not doing the same thing.
if im busy on weekend, you know right after work i could stil meet you up.
or i could take an off day from work. you know that right.

im worried about you!
& im worry about you the most,
why must you change into something that you're not.
& that hurts me most, to see that.

& you told me not to contact you anymore.
im trying to obey what you told to do.
but i just couldnt help it.

& im sorry for everything!
i just dont wish us, to be this way.
like as in to be quiet & dont talk to each other when we met up,
like if talk also like nak taknak. i dont want that to happen.

im sorry, if you're hating me.
sorry!

yours sincerly,

~ aishah lulabelle! ~

2009-07-12T15:53:00.003+08:00

hey!

facing lots of problem!
this few days!
haiyo!

i dont want to go to that pathetic place!
argh! but looks like i really have to force myself to go!
go there just to make things okie.!
okie for the better or for the worst
that one, i dont care anymore!

hah!
kie!
one thing need to get things straight!
dont ask me to make a decision!
i cant make any decision now!

too many things inside my head!
too many things to handle!
i cant stand it no more!

i think if it would be best
if i just surrender myself!
argh! but i dont want!
BUT i have too!
that's the only thing that i could think of!

arggghhhh!!!
FCUK!!!

2009-06-30T11:28:00.007+08:00

hey!

yesterday, i randomly check

my golden village account.

& guess what, i get an e-voucher for my birthday.

a voucher that when i bought 1 ticket & i get 1free one.

hee~

& guess when was it valid til?

it valid til today!

hah!

and so i went to catch a movie.

i mesg azharDear & istyDarling in the evening,

& ask them if they want to catch a movie.

istyDarling, cant tag along, cause she have to finish up

her assignment before thursday.

Cause on thursday, we ( me & isty) will be going to Batam!

She going to stay at my house at there!

we going to go shopping!

gonna have lots of fun!

hopefully hafizah could tag along. =)

yesterday after work,

met azharDear, then we proceed to dhoby ghaut.

catch a movie a PS.

we watch a movie called 'Drag Me To Hell'

it was superb lah..

you should watch it! hehehe..

hahaha..i accidentally scream at azharDear's ear.

heehee~ sorry dear!

that happen not once but twice. hee~

sorry! =)

the movie end at 1145pm,

azharDear called up his brother & told his brother to fetch him

& send me home. =)

thanks dear! =)

hee~

overall! i had fun lastnight!

peace out!

hee~

2009-06-26T15:05:00.004+08:00

hey!!

now it has been two freaking long weeks,
since i saw my brother!
im freaking miss him!

tomorrow he booked out!
finally! can see him with his botak head!
hahahahahahahah..

gonna disturb him. :p
hehe..ermm, and ya,
im gonna treat him when i get my pay!
:)

hmm.. this holidays had been great for me.
it's like almost every week or should i say almost everyday,
i met azhar & isty!
cool uh! hee~
& almost every week i met dilly! cool!
:)

had lots of fun! incredible!hahaha
kie, aku bbl mepek! hahahaha. :)

2009-06-20T17:59:00.002+08:00

heyO!!

today, was the sweetest day!
hehehe.
azharDear accompany me to go for lunch.
hehehe. we had our lunch at Qiji
we ordered nasi lemak & i ordered popiah.
hehe.i was superb hungry.
cause by the time i met him, it was already 340pm.
& usually i go lunch is at 1, latest is at 2.

& after that, he send me to my work place.=)
& i was already late for work. =)
hehehehe.

dear had a new haircut! =)
he look cute! :p hehehe.
& today is his first day of work!
wow! all the best ya dear! =)

2009-06-17T15:21:00.002+08:00

hey!!

yesterday, after work.
i met dilly! i had superb night with her.
hehehe.. met dilly after work,
then we went to kampung glam.
chilled at kampung glam coffee shop.

we had teh peng, & we talked & laugh!
hehehe..
& ya, i know that dilly, knows wani.
but dilly was shocked that i know wani.
hahahaha.
& i was shocked that dilly knows yan's brother, yan & ika.
hahahahah..
she was also shocked that i know yan & ika.
hehehehe..

funny seh!! =)
had lots of fun!
we should hang out more often. =)

2009-06-09T13:02:00.002+08:00

this gonna be the most memorable
june holidays for me!

im gonna make it happen!
hahaha.
cause im going to go to places
that is in my wishlist!
yeeaahh!!

i gonna go the GMax!!
singapore flyer!!
im going with my dear!

jyeahh!! im going there soon!!
anyone wanna tag along with us?
jus mesg me!!

2009-06-08T15:34:00.002+08:00

6 june 2009!!

it's my day!
it's the day that i turn 18!
hehehe..
thanks my dearies; isty, azhar, fad, isk, hairil, azri,
fatyn & izah & husin!
thanks for making a blastful day for me,
although ending part of the day, is not i wanted &
it's not in my birthday wishlist for it to turn that way.
im sorry!

okie, let's start from the begining!
first, i met fad at orchard mrt!
while waiting for isk & azri to arrive,
we headed down to far east to have our lunch at SUBWAY!!
hehehehe..fad treat me for lunch!
hehehe..thanks fad.

oh ya!! azharBBY told me that he was having a "job interview"
in the evening & isty told me that she was "working full shift!"
sorry isty, sad to say, u nak tipu tk dapat!
hahahaha..friday, you dah terlepas cakap yang you tk work!
hahaha..

okie,so the plan was, before azharBBY went for his "job interview",
he met isty first.cause they are the planner for that day.
hahaha..
so while they were planing the stuffs,
im with the guys, waiting to go down to raffles place.
but before that, i met up with hafizah & husin at hereen.
fizah told me that she wants to pass me something to me.

met fizah & to my suprise, the gave me a bouquet of flowers.
with a paper saying ' happy 18th birthday aishah!'
& at the back of the paper she worte,
'may this flower represents our friendship!
& we will always be bestfriends!'

fizah, i have bad news to you!
i lost the piece of paper & the ribbon!!
i was so sad that i lost it!!
im sorry! but the flowers are stil with me!
i will take good care of the flowers ye!
love you BESTFRIEND!

back to the story now,went to raffles place,
wait for fatyn & wait for isty to call then we can proceed.
hahaha..
when isty had already called!
we walked to the place & guess what,
they blind fold me!!
hahahaha..

when we reached the place,
fatyn let her hands down & isk told me to open my eyes slowly.
to my suprise i saw isty & azharBBY.
on the floor there's candles & it form the number '18'
and azhar was standing in a heart; which was form by candles!
sweet lah sngt!!

i was like 'AAHHHHH' like it was as if i was dreaming!!
but the sad part was that, they couldnt light up the candles!.
hahaha..
but after that i try to light it up,
and it could be light up!
hahaha..only the birthday girl can do it!
hahahahaha..

here comes the best part!
dear gave me a small cake,& i took the cream
& put it on his face!
hahaha..birthday girl tk kene sabo!
hahaha..ader lah kene sikit.
hahahahaha..
& isty gave me a long sweet letter!
i LOVE YOU all!!

thanks dears for making a blastful day for me!
------------------------------------------------------------------------
* for azri & mario are being excused!
cause they had told me that they are busy
& if they are free, they will come down.
but it's okie, cause on this saturday,
they are going to make it up to me.

and those who had promise me months ago,
saying that,you want to save it for the best, til
you don't even go to your own jiwe's birthday party.
cause why?
cause you malas nk gi!hah!
you told me straight to my face,
that you will save it for the best!
you will come down to my birthday party!
you had promised me!
hah!

& so i assume that you, you are also lazy
to come down!
i guess your promise are just fake!
& that promise of yours are meant to be broken!
& you don't even have the intiative to mesg me earlier
saying that your going home, you wait til i mesg you
then you tell me.
why must you keep us waiting for you?
whatever!

& you know, how much it means to me.
you know that it's been months im looking forwar to that day!
& there you were.
not even there!

is this what you call jiwe?
or should i say bestfriend?
im not making a big fuss just about this.
think back what you have done to me,
til i make a big fuss!
think back!

2009-06-05T13:51:00.003+08:00

the two birthday girls!

this picture was taken by me

on the 5th june 2008

hey!!

i wanna wish a happy 20th birthday to kak irma!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK IRMA!!

i love you!

kak, i miss you so much!

when can i meet you!

i miss last year!

when we celebrated our birthday together!

i missed it so much!

anyways, have a great day today okie kak?

today is your day!

be happy! =)

& ya, tomorrow is my day!

jyeah!

i miss you,kak!

2009-06-03T22:34:00.007+08:00

hey!!

finally, exams are over!!
i had already taken my last paper!
& now here comes HOLIDAYS!!

3 more days to go!
& i will turn 18!
JYEAH!
just looking forward on the 6 of june!
cause it's my day! it's my birthday!
i just wanna be happy on that day!
stress free day for me!

holidays means work!
work means earn money!hahaha..
i've been not feeling well for the past 7 days!
already went to see a doctor,
medicine all finish but stil havent recover!
like WTF!

maybe tomorrow, i have to see a doctor again.
argh!! im soo lazy! haiish!
see how tomorrow uh!
if not, i will just rest at home!

cheers!
lulabelle

2009-05-31T16:19:00.004+08:00

i need time & space for myself.
i need time to think about what's right for me.
too many things happen in just one month!

life has been totally unfair to me,
im just too hurt by myself.
i need a break!

gone MIA!

*6 more days* counting down! :)

2009-05-25T13:59:00.002+08:00

hey!!

yesterday, was fun!
went out with isty, raffi & muji.
met isty first at my work place!
went off from work at 7 pm.

thought of meeting azhar at NUH.
i told him to text me, if he kene warded or not.
so i wait & wait.

then ended up,
i went out with isty, raffi & muji!
we met raffi & muji at bugis control station.

then we, accompany muji, to find id photo the machine.
he took picture for his work!
so after that, we went to dhouby ghaut,
hang out around there, til 1015pm.

then, we went home.
overall, outing was fun!
but there's also bad thing happen to azhar!
i was like worried sick,
when in the train, i called azhar,
& he didnt picked up my call!!
so i called his home,
& his dad picked up the phone.

talk to him.
alhamdulillah, that it was not serious.
get well soon kie!!

2009-05-24T11:23:00.002+08:00

hey!!!

im soo freaking happy!!
thanks isty for making my day, yesterday!
thanks baby!
I LOVE YOU!!

yesterday, i met isty at my work place..
hahaha..

im sooo damn happy lah seh!!
sangat, sangat!!

thanks isty!
thanks!!

2009-05-23T17:02:00.002+08:00

about friday

what a day.
had to take 2 tests in one day!
hah!
luckily one test is an open book test.
hahaha..

after school, i went back home,
& bella followed me home,
cause she wants to change her clothes &
touch-up on her make up.

after bella left, i straight away,
go sleep. hehe. :)
im was super sleepy, due to thursday night,
i talked on the phone with azhar.
from 1230 am til 5 am.
hahahaha..
i only manage to sleep for one hour 30 minutes.
hahaha.then went to school.

in the evening, i went out with isty,rizal & ammar
first i meet up with rizal at 854 bus-stop.
it's been months since i saw rizal & ammar.
when i saw rizal, i was like.. 'aaaahhhh!!! rizal!!!'
hahahaha.. then i hugged him cause i missed him!

kie than, after that, meet isty at houngang interchange.
than we took a bus from there. we took 89 to changi village.
waited for ammar.
when we reached there, we then went to had our dinner.
all of us had nasi ayam penyet, the sambal POWER!!
hahaha..

we then proceed to the beach,
sit ard there, chit-chat ,laughed.
& as per usual, ammar, disturbed me all the way
& rizal joined him. ( they never change)
hahahahaha..

we went off at ard 1115pm
we took the bus back home.
ammar & rizal drop at senkang.
while isty & i , we dropped at hougang interchange.

by the time i reached home, it was at 1245am.
& my dad confiscated my handphone for one night.
so im sooo sorry, if anyone tried to call me, & you cant get through.
sorry!

& im sorry azhar, i didnt called you when i reached home yesterday.
cause my dad keep the house phone in his room
& he had confiscated my handphone.

but now i have already get back my handphone!!
hahaha..seram jer handphone kene confiscated,
banyak gambar bapak aku tak perlu tengok!
hahahaha..

2009-05-21T20:24:00.019+08:00

hey.

this week is the most suckiest week ever!

cause there just too many ~~heart pain~~ things happen!

& what i could do, is only to pretend.

pretend to be happy.

& ya, i swear to myself that,

i wont let myself to be in a relationship

with anyone ever again and

i wont let myself to be hurt ever again.

that will be the last relationship

& it hurts so much!

so now, what ever it is,

it will only be a friends or just ~~TTM~~.

& i wont be in love with the person,

whom is my friends' friends.

cause it gonna be awkward,

whenever we broke up & had a big fight!

so yeah, now will be only friends

not more. no more relationship for me!

had enough of this relationSHIT!

im gonna be in a relationship

only when im ready to face every single

shit that will occur, so for now!

~~im soo not ready to face another piece of shit!~~

im gonna be single & be happy with my friends!

jyeah!

2009-05-20T20:36:00.002+08:00

hello!

what a tiring day,
after selling hotdog bread with drinks.
& the whether is like freaking hot,
& i feel like soak myself in a bath tub.

hahaha..& so when i reached home,
i decided to go swimming with my sis.
hahah.so we went to the swimming pool,
luckily the swimming pool was like extremly near
my place, it's like 2 minutes walk from my house.

tomorrow is our one month anniversary,
ermm.. anyways, i just wanna wish him a
HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!
love you!

regret

2009-05-19T19:06:00.004+08:00

im sorry for what i've done!
i should not had done that!
i should had just control myself,
i should had just
listen to what isty told me yesterday!

it's really embarrassing.
& im really damn regret,
what i've done.

but now is just too late to
be regret.
everything had been done,
& i cant turn back the time.

im sorry!
i know that,
by saying sorry it wont really help.
but that is what i can do right.
& i really mean it everything.

2009-05-18T20:24:00.004+08:00

arghh!! im soo lost!!

isty & bella im sorry, for disobey
you, girlfriends!

im sorry!!

you told me not to hurt myself,

but i just cant hold it from doing that!

im sorry!

but don't worry, it's not serious.

my nukles are just red.

don't worry, by tomorrow

it wont be red anymore.

crashed!

2009-05-18T19:18:00.007+08:00

this is what happen when to me.

im just looking forward to our first month anniversary,

& this is what happen?!

aku tau yang kawan bilang kau,

yang aku kat mac dengan nizam.

itu last minute, nizam nk jumper aku.

it was not planned at all.

kalau tu sume dah plan,

aku dah lame bilang bella about it.

but it was not being planned at all.

aku dah kat bustop,

tiber2 ex aku call, nk jumper aku jap.

jumpe nk bbl ngan aku jap, & isp rkk sebtg

then teros dier jalan!

sepatutnye aku nk balik at that time.

anyways, promises are meant to be broken right?

you tk perlu nk ungkit pasal my kisah silam per.

you tell me that, i didnt tell you where i wanna go

& with who i wanna go out with,

& you don't do the same thing.

& when i texted you,

you dont even reply at my mesges.

you start to reply to my mesg when it was at night.

aper pagi & petang nyer mesg tk perlu nk reply?

aku memang sayang kan kau,

kalau aku tk sayang kan kau,

buat aper aku nak pergi kat kau.

aku aderlah tertunggu2 untuk hari thursday.

nk celebrate our first month anniversary.

aku rase tu sume aku cume boleh, mimpi jer lah.

LOVE FOOL!

2009-05-17T17:28:00.007+08:00

Love Fool

by: New Found Glory

Dear, I fear we're facing a problem
You love me no longer, I know
And maybe there is nothing
That I can do to make you do

Mama tells me I shouldn't bother
That I ought just stick to another girl
A girl that surely deserves me
But I think you do

So I cry, I pray, and I beg

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Fool, fool me
Go on and fool me
Love me, love me
Pretend that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me

So I cry, and I beg for you to

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me
I can't care about anything but you

Lately I have desperately pondered
Spent my nights awake an I wonder
What I could have done in another way
To make you stay

Reason will not lead to solution
I will end up lost in confusion
I don't care if you really care
As long as you don't go

So I cry, I pray, and I beg

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Fool, fool me
Go on and fool me
Love me, love me
Pretend that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me

So I cry, and I beg for you to

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me
I can't care about anything but you (anything but you)

Love me, love me
Fool, fool me
Love me, love me
I can't care about anything but you

2009-05-17T12:29:00.004+08:00

dear whoever!

you should have already know me
well enough.
right from the start you should know,
that im like this.

& nothing could EVER change me!
im a good girl with alot of BAD HABITS!

ermm..wait..

there's only two person that can change me.

i don't have to tell who are they.

sincerly
me!

2009-05-16T19:42:00.002+08:00

hey.

yesterday outing was fun!
although i cant stay till late night,
i did have fun!

and im sorry azri, mario & azri's sis,
im sorry for meeting, you guys for awhile.
sorry banget!!

yesterday went to raffles, hang around.
til around 845pm, i left the place.
because i need to accompany my mum at her house,
she was alone.

and when i reached there,
guess who did i saw sitting on the sofa,
it was nizam.
he went there cause he wants to visit my mum,
and my mum has already regard him as her own son
& nizam also regard my mum as his mum.

i was so freking shock to see him at there.
i have no idea that he's going there.
and he also had no idea that im sleeping there.
but my aunt has already told me before that,
he would normally visit my mum. [without me knowing]

so, i just enterd the house, and just walk straight to the
kitchen, to salam & kissed my mum.[has always do]
i just pretend that nizam was not there.
when in the room, change clothes & charge my hp.
my hp batt was really flatt!

hmm.. it took me, quite some time to talk to him.
so we just had an empty talk.
talk about the movie which was on suria channel
'janji seorang anak', we talked about that.
actually, he talked to my mum,
& i just interrupt their conversation.
hahaha..

2009-05-13T20:24:00.007+08:00

these are the photos!

2009-05-10T18:59:00.002+08:00

hey..

now im at home.
okie, abt just now..

okie, azhar did came back to esplanade. to meet me & isty.
he reached esplanade at 2 am. he took the night rider to get there.

so after that, we just like talked crap,
like for the whole morning.haha..
talked crap, til jadi belo..hahahaha..

it was fun after all.
but also kinda bored.
we had our supper & also can called it our superb early breakfast.
hahahahaha..

we walked around the esplanade,
then we chilled at outside colours by the bay, cause it was raining quite heavily.
we sat at the sofa.hahah.it was so comfy, til i felt like sleeping.
but i cant.

and, and !! azhar & isty BULLY me!!
they tickle me like hell!!
hahaha..
so at ard 445am like that, we went to marina square's 7-eleven,
to buy some bottle drinks.
cause all of us are very thirsty..
at ard 5am we flag a cab, to go to lavander.

chilled at lavander til 630am.
there was alot of laughter til can make us go crazy!
hahaha
isty followed me, to my mum's place.
& azhar went home.
and his mp3 is with me.i forgot to give it,
back to him! haha..
2mrw i will pass it back to him, in sch.

kie2, that's all ya..
i need to slp!!
im so damn tired & damn slpy!!

bhubye!

2009-05-10T01:03:00.004+08:00

hey!

Guess what!
Now, im at esplanade,
With my bestie, isty yaw!

Im updating my blog by using
My hp.hahahaha.

Okie, let me tell you, what am i doing at esplanade.
First thing, first.
Me, isty, fad, isk, helmi & martin
we went out thought of celebrating azhar's belated birthday.

& azhar came to raffles super late. Cause due to on saturday morning, at 430am we ton at lavander, til 7am. I was slping at my mum's place, azhar & fad came to lavander. We chilled there.

Back to the story!
When, azhar reached at raffles, few minutes later, the pizza arrived. All of us ate it. Oh, ya, i almost forgot abt yan & ika, they did join us for awhile, then they went off.

After had our dinner, we then proceed to esplanade, we then chilled at the rooftop. Til ard 1130pm, everyone left me & isty.
There alone. Just the two of us, GIRLS! Like WTF!

Azhar also left. Cause he said that, he NEEDS to meet his friend at bukit gombak, his friend wants to pass him something! & he did say that, he will come down at esplanade.

I was like so not in the mood, when he left. I mean i dont mind that his first piority is his friends bt atleast he could like meet his friend some other day. Cause there's no guys to take care of us, girls. & he simply dont get that in his mind.

And he expects me to tell him. This common sense sey! How could you left your girl with her best friend alone when have already know that, you friends will be going home. To be frank, i never exprience this before in my whole of 18 years!

What a day! Bt anyways, i can takecare of myself n my bestie!
Irresponsible boifee! Argghh!

2009-05-04T19:23:00.004+08:00

ermmm..

before anyone of you wants to say

anything about my blog.

think first, before you say.

cause i have the right to blog

about my feelings

& if you dont like it,

you can leave!

and dont ever think

to come back!

when randomness stikes lulabelle!

2009-05-04T18:59:00.005+08:00

Hands Down

by Dashboard Confessional

Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep.
This air is blessed, you share with me.
This night is wild, so calm and dull.
These hearts, they race from self-control.
Your legs are smooth as they graze mine.
We're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me,
So won't you kill me, so I die happy?
My heart is yours, to fill or burst,
To break or bury, or wear as jewelry.
Whichever you prefer.

The words are hushed, let's not get busted.
Just lay entwined here, undiscovered;
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
"Hey, did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close,
They can't hear, so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me,
So won't you kill me, so I die happy?
My heart is yours, to fill or burst,
To break or bury, or wear as jewelry.
Whichever you prefer.

Hands down, this is the best day I can ever remember.
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
The dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair,
That you twirled in your fingers.
And the time on the clock when we realized it's so late.
And this walk that we shared together.

The streets were wet and the gate was locked,
So I jumped it and I let you in,
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist,
And you kissed me like you meant it,
And I knew that you meant it.
That you meant it, that you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it, that you meant it.

when randomness stikes lulabelle!

2009-05-04T18:48:00.011+08:00

when randomness stikes lulabelle!

i was on my way home from bugis,

when i have already reached hougang station.

i have to walk for at least five to ten minutes walked

from hgng station to my house.

& when i was walking home,

i was listening to my ipod nano,

& i set it to shuffle mode.

suddenly the song 'hands down'

the acoustic version by Dashboard Confessional

was up next.

& it reminds me of nizam!

cause he used to sing that song for me,

when we were talking on the fone late night.

and he will strum the guitar & sing for me.

then i secretly recorded it.

hehehe..

now it just left me with the sweet memories

that we used to have.

honestly, i never felt this way,

as in so damn freaking down before.

haiish..

2009-05-03T15:18:00.009+08:00

It never crossed my mind at all

That's what I tell myself What we had has come and gone

You're better off with someone else It's for the best, I know it is

But I see youSometimes I try to hide What I feel inside

And I turn around You're with him now

I just can't figure it out

Tell me why You're so hard to forget Don't remind me

I'm not over it

Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth I'm just a little too not over you

Not over you

Memories

Supposed to fade What's wrong with my heart?

Shake it off, let it go

Didn't think it be this hard Should be strong

Moving on But I see you Sometimes I try to hide

What I feel inside And I turn around You're with him now

I just can't figure it out Tell me why You're so hard to forget

Don't remind me I'm not over it Tell me why

I can't seem to face the truth I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret Everything I said No way to take it all back, yeah

Now I'm on my own How I let you go I'll never understand

I'll never understand

2009-05-03T15:00:00.005+08:00

"Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you "

im soo speechless!

"He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself"

2009-05-01T11:55:00.002+08:00

Wonder
by 20 dischanger

I wonder if you ever felt alone
Even when your sitting right next to me
I wonder if you think about me like the way you do
When you met me the first time

Sometimes I think if I'm ever right for you
Sometimes I fear that you feel it too
We're never meant to be
And right from the first time
Is not working out

Have you ever wonder
Why I feel this way
You don't seem to ever try to make my day
I feel so neglected and I'm not needed not even once
Have you ever tried to fit into my shoes
I don't think you'll ever reach the finish line
Where I'll be waiting where
I'll standing just looking at you

Can you see what I'm trying to say
can you see What I'm trying to do
I'm trying to make the best world just for me and you
why does it have to end this way
I'm not ready to leave you
I'm not ready to move on its so unfair

My life turns upside down when i try to make amends
It all depends on you my girl
it all depends on you

2009-04-30T22:35:00.003+08:00

promises are meant to be broken right?!
but not all promises.

lie to me all you want,
cause i aint stupid to be fool by you!

is this the way you, do to make me trust you?
PPPSSSSTTTTTT!!!!!!!

you can just forget about me having the trust
towards you!

psssttt!!
slalu kau nk kene kan aku jer kan!
aku diam2, ko pijak atas kepale aku.
aper sekarang kau nak bagi aku taik balik
cam ner aku kasi kau taik dulu eh?
kalau tu aper yang kau pikirkan,
kau salah!

kau tengok uh brape banyak taik,
kau bleh kene kan aku.
make me blow for the second time,
you will then know what will happen!

bella!!! izzy!! isty!!
maner korang!!

25 april 2009

2009-04-27T11:20:00.002+08:00

25th april 2009

happy birthday to you!
happy birthday to you!
happy birthday to Azhar!
happy birthday to you!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, BABY!

after work, we went to celebrate his birthday!
i met birthday boy, isty & fadly at outside sim lim sq.
after met them, we proceed to haji land,
before that, we went to 7-eleven to buy some drinks for later.
then i bought the bargain deal & two large soft drinks at KFC.

we then proceed to haji land.
to the mosic cafe, to smoke sheesha.
& oh ya! i almost forgot, we bought the laughing gas! :)
while waiting for the person to lay the carpet & set up the sheesha,
we inhale the laughing gas, & we started to laugh like crazy people.
hahahha..

told baby to open up my present,
he was like, "EHHH!! you kate you beli untk adeq you seh!"
hahahaha..then i was like " tak lah, actually i belikan untk you lah, that is a white lie."
hahaha..he was like super shock seh! hahahah..
tau amek video seh.hahaha..

i bought him a sony mp3 & red colour.
his favourite colour somemore..heheh..
we smoked sheesha, we talked crap,
inhale the laughing gas, camwhoring.
hehe.. it was fun!

i enjoy it soo much..
bby i hope you like the present.
i love you.

randomness in me

2009-04-20T11:18:00.005+08:00

"And don't you dare say we can just be friends

I'm not some boy that you can sway

We knew it'd happen eventually "

remember those sentences?

that is what you told me.

i just cant stop thinking about our lilttle sweet moments,

whenever i listen to this.

you may think that i've move on.

but im not dear.

how am i suppose to let go of everything

that we've been through for a yr 10 months.

to be frank, i do still have those flashbacks about the dear us.

it's so damn hard to forget it,

eventhough, im the one who said 'goodbye'.

i am sorry for hurting you all this while.

this song is for you.

this song keep playing in my head

everytime i think about you

& it makes me feel really weak

to what i've done.

& it's a breakdown to me

"I swear I'll never be happy again."

2009-04-19T00:23:00.003+08:00

If it means a lot to you
by A Day To Remember

And hey darling
I hope you're good tonight
And I know you don't feel right when I'm leaving
Yeah I want it but no I don't need it
Tell me something sweet to get me by
'Cause I can't come back home till they're singing

La, la la la la la la

'Til everyone is singing

If you can wait till I get home
Then I swear to you
That we can make this last
(La la la)
If you can wait till I get home
Then I swear come tomorrow
This will all be in our past
Well it might be for the best

And hey sweetie
Well I need you here tonight
And I know that you don't want to be leaving me
Yeah you want it but I can't help it
I just feel complete when you're by my side
But I know you can't come home
'til they're singing

La, la la la la la la

'Til everyone is singing

La, la la la la la la

If you can wait till I get home
Then I swear to you
That we can make this last
(La la la)
If you can wait till I get home
Then I swear come tomorrow
This will all be in our past
Well it might be for the best

You know you can't give me what I need
And even though you mean so much to me
I can't wait through everything

Is this really happening?
I swear I'll never be happy again
And don't you dare say we can just be friends
I'm not some boy that you can sway
We knew it'd happen eventually

La, la la la la la la

Now Everybody's singing

La, la la la la la la

2009-04-17T23:04:00.002+08:00

I Won't Fall For You
by 20 Dischanger

we are back to where we started
i'm so lost and confused should i stay or should i go away
a million times you say you're sorry
its a meaningless word that u used on me time and time again

silent screams escape my lips
i feel there's nothing more that i can do
i'm trapped in a cage and i'm on my own
i just saw the beasti tried to shout the silence away
the harder i try the harder i fall
i saw it coming againand the beast is you

as the light unfolds the darkness beneath
i saw something i wished i've never seen
amongst the piles of memories
deliniation of you

i wont fall, i wont fall for you again
this love just caused me so much pain
i promised myself to never let me down
i wont fall, i wont fall for you again
this love just caused me so much pain
i promised myself to never let me down

2009-04-17T22:54:00.003+08:00

solitary
by 20 Dischanger

late nights and reoccuring nightmares
do nothing to help me overcome this insecurities
have i imagine this would be happening my world came crumbling down

cause a few years ago i give u my all
not worrying if i made a huge mistake
and my instinct let me down,
a crumpled state of mind that resurrects me
and so a solitary life waits ahead

im not used to this and im crying out loud
the remnants of the past keeps creeping up on me
the lullaby u sing sound haunting everytime
the mirror sings back at me

i know its hard for me to say it happen long ago
but memories etched and i forgive but not forget
im so torn at all the seams im trying hard to mend it back
do you ever care when i need u, you're never there
so much for all the promises a solitary life waits ahead

2009-04-10T19:12:00.002+08:00

hey!!!

:)

bye!
hehehehe

random

2009-04-08T17:03:00.004+08:00

random!! :)

i can do whatever i want like you!
i can do whatever i want like you!

the old me's dead and gone!
dead and gone!

random
random
random me!

:)

2009-04-08T11:38:00.002+08:00

called him, ytd night.
& guess what? i've been punked.
for two straight weeks..
hahaha..

you pantat!! this is the third time!!
hahahahahahahahahahaha..

anyways, ytd after work,
i went out with my work friends.
went to have dinner & after that,
i went straight home.
at home, talked on the phone for awhile.
watched anime, eat, watched anime again
then sleep..haha..

btw about ytd post.
that is what i assumed..im sorry!
sorry to post about that.

random

2009-04-07T19:18:00.003+08:00

it's going to be 3 wks since i met him.
i did ask him out, and he told me,
that he's not feeling well, so i told him
it's okie, when he's feeling much better
than we'll meet up.

& he said that today, he wants to fetch me
frm work. & i guessed that he's not comming to fetch me.
cause he didn't even say anything to confirm with me.
& i did mesg him just now in the morning & in the evening,
he didnt even reply.

hah! thanks anyway.
i've been looking forward to meet him
& i guess he don't want to meet me anymore than.
i know what had happen for the past week, it's my fault.
i did apologise to you, for more then 3times,
i guess you just cant forgive me.
& you're just too angry towards me.

arghh!! i just can't take it anymore.
he's been doing stupid things in this past 2 wks.
& what i could do is just to hold it to myself & not telling anyone.
try to face it alone, rather than share it.
cause i did asked him why he did this.
& he just ignored me, or drop the topic
and act as if everything is alright.
but it's not.

& he even said that nobody cares about him,
hello!! i do care about him okie.
when i talked to you, & you just pretend as if nthing had happen.
& how would you expect me to feel?

it's has been always my fault all a along right?
im always in a wrong & you are always in the right.
i've always giving in to you, did you notice that?
no right?

to you, im always in a wrong.
if really, i mean nothing to you.
please tell me straight.
don't keep me hanging!

i've always love you, the only thing that im lack of is
showing that to you.

...

outing on the 4th april 2009!! :)

2009-04-05T00:37:00.005+08:00

outing on the 4th April 2009!!

finally, we have an outing! *with secondary friends*
haha.
actually today, at XMS, they are having Homecoming Day.
i had told my friends that, i will be going to the event.
& guess what, i woke up late! haha.. i woke up at 1pm
checked my hp, there was 4 missed calls.
2 from isty & another 2 from nizam.
isty called me at 11+. & that time i was still sleeping..haha..

what do expect, it's my off day & im really tired..haha
cause the day before that, i went out to meet my long lost friend..
he fetched me from work! awww, so sweet! hehe..
hahah..we like lost contact with each other very long.
& finally, we meet up! :)

so back to the story..hahaha..
i quickly called isty, & told her that, i will be going back to school.
so i quickly shower & get dressed..
as i was on my way,i called isty & asked her, where is she.
she told me to meet at hafizah's block.
& i didnt get to go back to school!!

meet isty, hafizah, shahrin, nazih, ragu, yan hao, emmett, jasper, ivan.
then after that, we went to coffee shop nearby, to have our lunch
& i didnt notice the time & by the time we had done eating,
it was already 330 pm, & i told nizam to meet me at marina sq at 330pm.
i was late.

so i told them that im late!!
then me, isty, hafizah, shahrin, nazih & ivan
we quickly proceed to hgng mrt.
so met nizam at peninsula,
while waiting for him to come down to peninsula
we did some camwhore..hahah..nizam was from esplanande.
& alot..have superb fun!!

went peninsula, isty wants to find vans shoe for aidil,
for aidil's birthday present. :)
& ended up, i bought a pink t-shirt & i wear on the spot..hahaha..
the t-shirt is nice, so what do you expect..hahah..

after that, we went to city link,
went to the guardian to look for ' laughing gas '
haha, we cant find it. then we went to HMV
nazih wants to go there.

we went to marina sq,
& otw to marina, i bought a slipper!! Ripples Slipper!!
i bought the brown colour!
guess what, the first person to wear it,
is not me.it's isty.
i borrowed it to her, cause she was wearing heels
& her leg was in pain. :)

i accompanied nizam to have his late lunch.
then we went to meet up isty, shahrin, nazih & ivan.
& hafizah left to meet her friends at bugis.
at ard 6+pm, *i think* nizam went off to town to meet emma & fairul.
so the rest of us stayed there. talking & laughing!

proceed to esplanade, we chilled there!
talk crap & i was crazy! haha.
took pictures!

&& now the best part! we went back to marina to have our
late dinner at ard 915pm! haha..
we went to MacDonlad's .
the 5 of us, we combined our fries into 1 tray..hahah
it was like alot of fries!!haha..
so, while having our dinner, we talked alot of crap!
we talked about gay, headphone, deaf & so on..hahah
we laughed & laughed non-stop!..haha..
we don't even need to use a laughing gas to make up laugh
our ass out!!
hahahahah..really enjoyed it..

sat at Marina steps, waiting for hafizah, syaza & syaza's friend.
more camwhore .. talked crap!! smoke!
hahahahah..

it was totally fun day!! it has been so long since i have this type of fun!!
hopefully we could go out again often!!
i've already upload the pictures!hehe
:)

I LOVE YOU GUYS!
you guys made my day!!
hugss & muacks

outing on the 4th april 2009!! :)

2009-04-05T00:12:00.012+08:00

when the 3 bestfriends meet up!

isty,you looked like a ghost!

oh ya! you are a vampire! haha

me in my new t-shirt!

i love this pic!

i love this too!

do, re , m

2009-03-30T23:46:00.002+08:00

Hate feeling so left out..
where are the people,
who always told me, that they are always there for me?

ermm..there is but only one or two..
& they are none other than istyDarling & wani!
where are the people who always have been by my side
since we are in sch, besides isty.
where are they?

well, i guess, they have forgotten me!

THANKS!

2009-03-28T11:57:00.003+08:00

heyO!!

now is the second week of school holidays.
last week, was not a nice week for me,
cause there's just too many obstacle.

& i just hope that things will turn out
to be much better for me.
im really tired of having this pathetic
bad luck that im having!
but i will stil try to have fun at work!

hah! anyways, on my off day
im going shopping!! YEAH!
im going with my bestest friend,
who is nizam. im going shopping & he's going to
accompany me. & later in the evening,
im going to meet my GIRLFRIENDS.
to have lady's night out!! yeah!

2009-02-12T21:13:00.002+08:00

hey!!

today,in school,
there's a performance..
valentine's day performance & celebration..

hafizah's class was selling cookies, roses & perfumes..
cool isn't it..haha..
i was like wow cookies & ROSES!!
& how i wish someone would give me rose!
haha

cause in all my 18 yrs..
no one has ever give me a real flower!!
hmm..& when bella & i,
were at the forum, waiting for the performance
to start.we just sat & watched the participants
practice..it's like alot of love songs & sad songs!!
which made my heart feel so heavy!!
& feel like burst into tears,but i just kept it.
trying to hold back!!

when the performance was about to start,
i saw azhar & friends,
so went towards them, cause i want to go out
for a smoke & i suddenly feel that i couldn't
stay to watch the performance, cause it will only make
me feel like crying!

when i went back to forum,
luckily all the singing was over,
so i just watched the dancing part..
& at the end of it,
guess wht!!
azhar bought me a pink rose!!!
PINK ROSE!!!& earlier he did gave me 2packets
of heart-shaped cookies!!
sweet seh!! & he really make my day..
frm a heavy heart to happy!!
hahahahaha..

that is the real flower that,
i've ever received from anyone!!
i was soooo happy!!
happy giler!!
hahahaha!!..

so ya, that's all for today!
hugs & muacks

2009-02-10T09:27:00.002+08:00

heyO..

now im in clss..nthg better to do..hahaha
dah msk lmbt..den agk bleh update blog nie.
hahahahahaha..

but the best thing about today
is that, i only need to enter 1 class
for today..hahahahah..
actually i have class frm 8am - 5pm..
but then,lessons that starts at 11am - 1pm..
i don't have to turn up for that
lssn cause, today group A is having their
phase test..i 'll taking my phase test on thursday.

so i will be having like a very,very long break!
from 11am - 3 pm.
saper nk gi lyn tunngu seh..heheheheheheh..
so, i tink aftr this lssn, mayb im gg home,
mayb just lepak..haha..

gosh! im super sleepy!
i want to slp!!
i did have enough slp last night,
i only slept for 3 hrs i guess..
cause i was busy on the phone til late night,
i was on the phone with azhar,
we talked til 4am..haha..
& i was supposed to wake up at 6 in the morning.
& meet bella at 730am at tamp int,
but ended up i woke up at 7am.
& luckily she also woke up late..
&& there's 1 mre thing..

i told azhar to meet bella & i at tamp int
by 730am..hahahaha..& he was early,
because his brother sent him to sch..
i did apologised to him, cause im late AGAIN & AGAIN!!
hahahah..

hmm..mayb later im gg to wait for azhar,
then just lepak kejap with him.
then balik TDO!!!hahahahahahha..
lol..

that's all..:)
hugs & kisses

2009-02-04T13:32:00.009+08:00

Ina - Fall

I gave you all you desired
All that you needed
Boy, I provided
I let you into my head
Into my bed
And that’s a privilege
I had your back at the answers
You took the dollars
I took the chances
Defended, battled and fought
Cuz I really thought you loved me
I don’t know where to start or where to stop
No, but I know I am done
I’ve had enough

So fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch you
And you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall

You said that you were the strong one
I was the girl
And I was the young one
I kept your feet on the ground
My head in the rounds I had you
You told me you were so grateful
I was with you
And I was so faithful
Stood by in all that you said
And all that you did
I loved you
I don’t know how to act or what to say
But I know I am good
I’ll be okay

And you fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch you
And you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall

So fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch you
And you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall

I DON'T WANT IT ANYMORE!

2009-02-03T21:29:00.004+08:00

LeToya - Not Anymore

this is dedicated to
this, this, this, this is dedicated to
ummm well, if you like i'm feeling this is
dedicated to you.

well,i've been the super-girlfriend
let you think that nothing bother me
like when you go out with your friends
and people bring me back the stories
the stories about them other girls,
about this one and that one and those three

so when i ask you a simple question,
where were you last night?
you wanna yell and scream
and try to flip it on me..

no, no, no, no
is anyone else just fed up?
if you heard it all before for,for,for,for(for,for)
then right where you
are just get up, ey!

somebody say
i don't want it anymore
i don't want it anymore
somebody say
i don't want it anymore
i don't want it anymore

because i've dried my eyes
and i realise i deserve
somebody that will treat me right

somebody say
i don't want it anymore
i don't want it anymore
somebody say
i don't want it anymore
i don't want it anymore

because i know my wroth so you
can keep that drama
i don't want it anymore

oh, oh, oh, oh
not anymore

umm no more settling for less
i've looking for that kind of man
that's gonna give his best cause
i'm giving my best

a man that wants to
cherish this and knows
exactly how to move me
not some silly little boy who wants
my goodies 'cause he took me to the movies

no, no, no, no
is anyone else just fed up?
if you heard it all before for,for,for,for(for,for)
then right where you
are just get up, ey!

somebody say
i don't want it anymore
i don't want it anymore
somebody say
i don't want it anymore
i don't want it anymore

because i've dried my eyes
and i realise i deserve
somebody that will treat me right

somebody say
i don't want it anymore
i don't want it anymore
somebody say
i don't want it anymore
i don't want it anymore

because i know my wroth so you
can keep that drama
i don't want it anymore

oh, oh, oh, oh
not anymore
i'm walking out the door oror
no not anymoooorrre
OOOOoooh
Awwwww

not no more i'm gone
Nooooo
said i'm leaving today
wipe the tears from my face
if you feel me say

P.S: i don't want it anymore!!
thanks for making me feel,
like a fool!! thanks ya!
& thanks for taking me for GRANTED!!

2009-02-01T13:02:00.003+08:00

hey..
now im at my work place!!
nthg to do, the shop is not even crowded,
so i took the chance to update my blog!!:)
hahahaha..

yesterday was a sad yet enjoying night.
cause yesterday, supposingly i have to
meet azhar at dhoby ghaut after i have finish working,
then he mesg me saying that he couldnt make it..
it was a last minute.but then it was okie.
i was like sad, cause last minute he couldn't make it,
cause since on thursday or friday, we have been looking
forward to saturday.& suddenly he couldn't make it.
but it was okie though..i don't blame him.

hmm..so after that, i have no plans,
so i decided to follow my sis.
she wants to shop & i also wnts to go.
cause i have to buy new white tee, & some of personal stuffs.:)
hehehe..but ended up, we just window shopping at topshop &
what is the shop name!!arghhh!! i forgot..arghh!!

anyways after that we decided to have our dinner
& we can't decide where to have our dinner.
while we were walking, suddenly we saw our work fren.
& told her to tag along with us,
i decide to have our dinner at swenseens!!woohooo!!
yummuy!!

when we were at swenseens, i ordered chicken & mushroom spaggetti,
my sis orderd cray fish spaggetti & my fren ordered american burger.
& for the dessert, we ordered regular earthquake.actually, that was my plan.
hehe..:)cool..it was fun..

the best part was, i was sick..
& i can still eat alot of ice-creams..hahaha..
& i was the one to finished up the ice-cream..
my sis & my fren, they ahve already gave up,
but im still continued eating..hahaha...

& want to know smthg,after eating the ice-cream i can't
stop coughing!!.til now!!..arghh!! it's been a week
im sick..& im having slight fever & i can still go work..hahahaha..
org degil kater kn..hahaha..
anyways if tomorrow, im stil sick, then i won't go to school,
i will go to see a doctor!!..

hahahaha..
that's all for now ya..
bhubye..

2009-01-24T11:47:00.003+08:00

hey..

let me tell you abt ytd..
well..
ytd, i went out with
bella, azhar & isk..

well, bella & i,
we reached thre first..
so, while waiting for the guys..
we decided to window shopping..haha..
we entered at this shop, called the National Geographic.

the shop was very interesting..i love it very much..
it was like very entique..hahaha..
& we took alot of pictures in that shop..
we even went to the fitting room, just to take picures.
hahaha..

aftr the guys arrived,we went into that shop again..
but we didnt took pic except for bella.
after that, we decided to had our lunch at
the coffee shop near to the bus intchange.
i had mee hoon grng & sugar cane juice! yummy!

aftr we had our lunch kn.we thn proceed to HENDERSON WAVES!
yeah!but than, bella couldnt follow us,
as she have to go home.
so the 3 of us proceed there..
it was so tiring to go there,
cause u have to climb up the stairs & slopes.(i guess)
hahaha..unless u have a transport to go thre
it would be much easier.haha

it took us like half an hour to get thre..hahaha.
we took alot of pictures!! fun giler !!
bella i wished that you thre with us seh!

& the best part was gg back tyme..hahaha..
cause it was really dark, n some place didnt have any lights.
it was only at 7,& it was like super dark..hahah..
so wht we did was, just to keep on talking to each other,
so that we will not be afraid..hahahahahah..

aftr that we went to vivo city to chill out..
& lots of talking & laughing & took some pictures.
ard 9, we walked off frm der!

really fun sngt2!

2009-01-19T10:13:00.002+08:00

hey!!

it's been so long,
since i didnt update my blopg..

well..during the school holis
im busy with working,
& now whn sch reopens
im busy with both sch & work..

but luckily this coming sunday,
im oFF!!i don't have to wake up at 9 am..
but hopefully, my lilttle siblings
wont make so much noise..heheh..
but if they did rite, i don't have to worry.
cause i have another 2 days to wake up late..
woohooo!!

next monday & tuesday, is chinese new year!!
i can sleep!!wohoo!!

now in clss having wireless practical..
my lect. let us to use the comp til 1030..
so now im taking the time to update my blog..
hahaha..
n ya, later at 1030,i'll be going to make
cross over cable..last wk, we did the straight cable..
haha..

kie, i g2g..
bhubye..
muacks..

2008-12-24T12:30:00.002+08:00

hey, hello!!

today is Christmas eve..
& today there's movie title
'The Grinch'.yay!!
nice movie..i wanna watch it..
it's at 730pm, so i'll be watching from
my work place then..but i can't watch
the full movie..argh!!hahaha..

so bored seh at work..
not alot of customers..
hmm..
later on new year eve,
my company will be having an exchanging gift 'party.'
hehe..i know, it should be tommorrow,
haha..last minute idea..haha..

anyway, it just reminds me of last year, when
i was working at GAP..haha..
we celebrated Christmas by exchanging gifts..
:) it was cool..cause it was the first time
i celebrated it..hahahaha..

i would like to wish all of you,
who celebrate Christmas,
MERRY ChRiStMas & a HAPPY NEW Year!!

2008-12-22T13:19:00.002+08:00

hey..

wow, time pass really fast.
now is the thrid week of school holidays,
& im stil waiting for my results.
arghhh!! when will the results be out!
hate waiting for it..

hmm..christmas is just around the corner.
& maybe later in the evening, isty going to come to my work place!
but she will come after her work.
we're going home together.i miss her so mnuch..

yey!!hehe

hugs & kisses

2008-12-14T16:12:00.003+08:00

heyO..

it's been 2 weeks of school holidays,
& i started to miss my friends..
hafizah, isty, nabila, azhar, azri, fahmi,
izwan, izzy, syafwan, firdaus, hasanah,
mas, aina, wan khairulah, steph, ash
& the rest..sorry i didnt mention your names.
i miss all of you, so much seh..

hmm..yesterday, after work,
i went to haji lane..
to smoke sheesha..
dear feteched me from work,
then we proceed to haji lane to meet the rest.
i met lala, emma, fairul, iman, fahmi, kid,
marteen & 2 girls,who are marteen's friends.

we ordered 2 jars of coke, 2 sheesha
total it cost ard $30 or $40..im not sure..
hahaha..

hmm..the best thing about yesterday was
that, fahmi borrowed his cousin's car
& he drove iman, lala, fairul, kid & marteen & emma there..
haha..while me & dear, we ride bike there!
the car was packed!!..haha..

that's all for now..:)

2008-11-22T18:10:00.003+08:00

heyO!!

now im at my work place..
no customer at this time.
so now is time for me to blog!!
hahaha..

today is my bestie birthday!!
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY FIZAH!!
wish you all the best in everything
that your doing now!

& she held a party at east coast beach..
poor thing, she didnt get to booked a bbq pit.
the other day, i accompany her to AXS machine,
to check..it was all full..

& so she made a makan2 at east coast near to the
pit 30..i will go there after work.

2008-11-20T15:00:00.002+08:00

heyO!

now, im in MLC.
Waiting for my DE practical test,
which was suppose to be now!
but my teacher postpone the time to 320pm..

& now i have to wait til 320pm..
BORED LAH SEH!

hmm..let me tell you about
what haappen just now..
in the morning, i had C&IE test.
done that, & i had break from 11am to 1 pm..
1 pm, i was supposed to go to indoor sports hall,
for some activity..
if im not wrong, play badminton or tabe-tennis..
BORING!!

so after i had my lunch,
bella, hannah & i, we went to forum to
watched some performance,
& there'a this reggae band came to our sch,
i forgot the band's name..
but i know, i only like the song,
'Welcome To My Paradise'.

they perform for quite long..
hmm..saw asari at forum,
then i saw hafizah & regina as well..

i think that's all for now,
cause my practical test is going to start soon!!
wish me luck.. :)

something that i learned in the middle of the day,

Don't use other people things like as if that's your own stuff..
cause you won't like it when other people use your things & they make it like their own stuff.

jgn buat barang org tu, barang sendiri..cause nnt iler org uat barang anda mcam barang dorang sendiri, anda tk suker..

peace out!!

2008-11-19T23:25:00.002+08:00

hey..

oh ya!!
i forgot to tell bella..
that u have been punked!!
hahaha..

your name is not in the debar list..
i told you that cause i want you to attand
class syg!!
you keep skipping class, you know that..

& exams are just around the corner dear..
please don't skipped class..

& bella, next week from tuesday onwards
im not going to sch..im working..
you know about it right?

& do keep me updated on lessons ya..

hehe..
PS: jgn marah eh syg!!hehe

2008-11-19T21:52:00.002+08:00

heyO!!

hmm..
wht happen in sch eh?
hmm..

Oh ya!!
there's lesson at 1230pm
& when i reachd sch,
it was already 1pm..

& there's performance at forum..
& isty's classmates was incharge of the event
they were giving out balloons!!

& ended up bella & i, we didnt turn up to class
hehe..
& ya,our P.M teacher is isty's P.M teacher as well..
& our P.M lssn is cancel.

haha..
so after the performance,
bella & i decded to go P.S
we went there for fun..haha
as like usually,go to starbucks
& we had frap toffinut!!
MY FAV!! YUMMY!!
*smiles*

haha..that's all for today!! :)

2008-11-09T13:00:00.002+08:00

heyO!!

what a boring day at work!!
nthg to do..
no customer..so bored..

ermm..
u know abt i have to treat
the company pizza hut..
& guess what, on last sunday,
i just treat the company
pizza which cost
2 for $19.90.

i told my friend to order
2 sets of that pizza,
& ask for diff toppings..
& order 2 garlic breads & 2 bottle of pepsi..
& 10 pcs of drumlets..

everytink cost ard $67.75..
i tink..
& now im sturggling to survive til end of the mth..
arghh..no mre money..
argh...hate whn this happen..

& EXAMS are just ard the corner!!..
must study hard!!..
another 3 mre wks!!
arghh..

but the best thing is dat aftr exams,
it's holidays!!

2008-10-28T19:47:00.002+08:00

hey!!

wht a boring day in sch..
sch starts at 930am.
& i reached sch at ard 1050am..
haha..

when i reached sch,
the 1st lssn has ended..
haiiyo..
& i niid to for the nxt lssn,
which is at 12noon..

ermm..while waiting for the nxt lssn,
i met my friends at bustp 31,
& i bought a pack of cigg.
& smoke a sitck or 2..
haha..& chitchat & had my lunch at cafe2
i had chichken cutlet..

went to clss aftr that
n clss end at 2pm..
that was early..

hmm..

2008-10-27T12:15:00.003+08:00

hey,

pardon me,
for my last post..
i guess, dat i just get too carried away..huh?!

today, wht a boring day at werk!!..
it's a public holiday, what..
so what do, i expect..
haha..

for those celebrating depavali,
i wanna wish you,
happy depavali..
(:

2008-10-23T17:54:00.005+08:00

arghhhh!!
im totally over guys!!
i mean it!!

there's this guy,
whom i USED TO had a crush on..
& he is a bitch!!(worst than a BItch!!)
i mean it sia..

arghh!!..
he is so stupid,
he said that im not over my x..
how am i suppose to be over my x,
when ur not even try to win my fucking heart!!
& ur not even there for me!!

n ya i know that im stupid to fall for his sweet words,
& im even stupid to listen to my friends,
my friends used to say that,
"aishah, he like you, sia..he really really like you! you try to go with him lah"
but abt that, i don't really trust my friends.
cause this guy is soo the good looking,
n can say ah dat he's quite hot.
& how can he even bother to like me sia..

& you know what!!
he still hav the cheek to tell me that he's single..
n til one day i mesg him.
& he didnt reply me!
&& i already suspect that confirm he's already
had someone!

argh!!!
fuck uh!!
argh!!
someone plsh help me!!
to delete this BItch from my lyfe!!
but i still lyk hym!
BUT WHY!! he hav to treat me like this!!
WHY!!

i don't fucking understand!!
WHY!!

2008-09-23T10:59:00.005+08:00

im so sick of all this..
thx to u,JERK!!
(whum i used to called hym a gud friend of mine)
u make me to turn to this way!
because of u! my life is such miserable!!

hate u jerk! mather fucker!!
bella is e only person knows wht happen to me
n she knows to who im referring this to!
im too close to that jerk, & at the end of
it,this is wht i get..

arghhh!! i shouldnt had been to close to u,
bcos of u, i quarreled with bella,
bcos of u, i changed, & bcos of u,
my some of frens r afraid to be close to me animre..
bcos of u, JERK!!

i know ur not regretting anytink,
but im e one who is regretting of
being close to u!!
see how much my lyfe had been destroy by u!!
u filty BITch!! he is such a jerk!!..

bcos of u!!! arghh!!..

but i guess itx okie, i may had lost e feeling of
love towards my x,my fren(whum is my close fren),
& u make me lose trust towards my frens..
c how much misery i have to face!!
& fer u,JERK..u surely having fun with ur stupid dumb frens..

h a h a..
n if u think all this is gonna bring me dwn
& break me into pieces..
UR SOOOO DamN FUcking WROnG!!

cause IM AISHah the DAMN FUcKING STRONG GERL!!
whu will keep on standing tall!!
n all of this SHIT is just making me stronger!!
STRONG to face all this SHIT like u!!

soo Fuck OFF frm my life u HELL JERK!!!!!!

2008-09-21T16:44:00.003+08:00

heyO!!!

holidays has just begin!!
JyEAH!!hehe
& im starting to miss my friends!!
i miss my classmates..
& especially BEllAdeAR,HazWan,AzhaR,
Mas,AiNA,& senang kater semue lahh!!
AKU MISS KRG SNGT2 LUHH!!!

now im at my work place..
so boring!!no customers..hahaha..

hmm..i wnt to go to arab street!!
i wnt to isp sheesha!!
haha!!

&& ya,HazWan birthday i coming soon ya!!
on the 25 sept..hmm..n guess wht, i took off
on that day!..& he's turning 19!!
hopefully, he's free, then we can go out
& celebrate his birthday!!..(=

hmm..lastly ,i wanna say is that,
i miss all my FRIENDS! INCLUDING my SECondary sch friends!!
& lau bleh, hari raye kiter kuar eh krg2!!
aku rindu lah ngan krg sngt!!..
aKU nk HUG krg!!!haha..

that's all for now!!
tkcr, hug n muacks..
tata!!

2008-09-14T13:14:00.004+08:00

heyO!!

now im at work..
hehe..it is like so freezing cold seh..
i didnt bring my sweater..ohhh noo!!hehe..

bella!!i enjoy ytd outing with
you, your bf & hazwan
haha..well i guess,you & bf
was stunned to see hazwan & i,
we wore the same shirt!!
hahahaahahah..!! cool kn babybella!!hehe

hazwan is mr batman..n im ms batman..haha..
it suppose to be batgirl not ms batman..hehe..
n e most funniest thing about the shirt is that,
at the back of the shirt, it wrote " trust me,im batman"
i think, i can't remember..hehe..
hazwan & me, we are the most outstanding couple!!
among the 4 of us!..yay! us!!haha..

i really enjoy myself ytd..
& when it's time to break fast, i had mee goreng..
bella , adly *bella's bf* & hazwan,
they had nasi goreng ikan bilis..
n it's like im the odd one out..haha..
haha..

at geylang is superb hot,to my suprise,
it was not soo packed.haha..
but it was soo freaking hot!!
haha..& we took pictures yaw!!haha..
later at night, then i upload the pictures..

& i went off at around 10,
hazwan send me home,frm payah lebar we walked to eunos
mrt, frm there we took bus 854..to hgng..
& guess what! i saw lala & her bf in the bus..
at 1st i didnt notice her, til i heard someone called
my name inside the bus, then i turned, & i saw lala..
we just smiled at each other!

then after that, hazwan and i, we kept on talking
and talking..it was fun..(:
when we reached hgng, i gave lala u hug..
n alighted the bus..
& hazwan send me all the way to my block..
swit kn!!(:hehe..

& after he had send me, he had to go back to
to geylang,cause he's gonna meet his family there..
but i kinda rase like i menyusahkn dier seh..hmm..
sorie untk menyusah kn u tau!im sorie hazwan. ):

anyways,i had so much fun ytd..
at marina sq n also at geylang..
bestlah sngt!!

2008-09-07T15:45:00.003+08:00

heyO...

it's been a week or 2,
since i updated my blog..haha..
well..im just too exhausted from the exbhition..haha..
comex thing that was held at suntec convention..

n today is the 7th day of the fasting month..
hmm..n now,im at my working place..
n looks like im breaking my fast here then..
haha..n my colleagues wnts me to treat them
pizza hut!!haha..but i don't know..haha..

just now, there's this pathetic customer,
came up to me and asked me for an external hardisk..
which he saw it outside at the poster printed $109
n on our pricelist printed $110..
it was only a dollar diff
n he was making a big deal about it..pathetic luhh sngt!!

n he wants to pay by visa..n he throw the card on the table..
n i didnt even bother to take his card,
he was being rude!!!
n i ask him, whether he wants to pay by cash or nets..
he just like pointing to his pathetic card..
n i told that
'visa u will have to pay additional charge of 7% GST'
he was like WHAT!..n he said that he don't wnt it
n he walked out the shop..n i just say 'okie sure'
haha..i don't give a damn to this type of customer!!

n luckily this customer was not like yestday customer,
whom i shouted at him in his face!!haha..

okie..u guys wanna know what happen yesterday?
i think it should be ya..

hmm..ytd at ard in the evening, there's this customer,
came up to me, and tell me abt something that he had bought it
earlier during the comex, n he said one of our colleagues
gave him a wrong item, n he said that on friday, he told
his child to come here to exhange the ram..

n he need to pay the admin fee of $10 cause he had
torn the sticker badly..and ya, he was shouting at me
not talking tau, but SHOUTING..n i asked him,
is it about the admin fee n dat's what make u to come back..
n he said that he don't mind abt the admin fee..

serious shit!!i don't understand what is he trying to tell me,
n in the end i told my colleague to talk to him..
my colleague talked to him nicely n politly.n he was shouting n shouting..
at that time i kept on looking at him..n i did serve a customer..
n at that time our shop was really crowded..

at i cant remember what he said, n he bang the counter..
the 1st time n 2nd time i just heck care..
the 3rd time he did that, n i just shout in his face,
"CAN U TALK NICELY!" i keep on shouting at him..
i even said that " U DON'T HAVE TO BANG RIGHT! U WNT I TALK TO U,
I BANG THE COUNTER LIKE THIS! (n i did bang)"n he still can say that he don't mind..WTH!!
darah mengirap seh!!..i just continue shouting in his face,
til i saw my colleague came( he is the most fierce among us..)haha..

he talked to that customer also not use..
ur just wasting ur time n ur saliva.
n the last word he said was that ' so this means ur company is cheating us'
n my colleague just told him to repeat the last word he said..
n he did that..n my colleague just told him to leave the shop..
the pathetic customer started to shout,the f**k shop..
n told the other customer to leave the shop by saying
"EH DON'T BUY AT THIS SHOP, THIS SHOP CHEAT U!"
i was like WTF seh..but other pple just heck care..haha

MY DARAH MENGIRAP SEH!!n aftr that, my colleagues says,
"wah aishah, u so fierce uh..nvr see u soo angry like that"
haha..anyway he really deserve it..

n on the same day, but this time was in the morning,
this angmoh customer finding fault with my sister..
wth kn..pagi2 bute ko dah nk carik psl..
bodoh nyer matsaleh,pagi2 carik psl..

anyways, i really have to patience,
cause it's fasting month..n there's just to many obstical
along the way,teting me..haha..

good thing tomorrow monday, wanna know why?
cause tomorrow schling, n i don't have to face any customer
with attitude problem!!..haha..

that's alll for now ya!!
bhubye..
tkcr..